Every day, I see how Christ impacts my life, my husbands life, and my sons life. My son is almost 2 years old now and he is SO impressionable right now. The things that stick out to me is that every night at dinner, he holds out his hand to me or my husband, so we can pray. I sing Jesus loves me to him and he attempts to sing along. One day, I was sitting in the recliner and Connor was playing across the room with his toys. I started praying out loud about some things and he ran to me just so he could hold my hand and pray with me. The Bible talks about the little children. But everyday, in my son, I see Christ. Connor just had such a natural connection with God. Something only a child can have, I am certain. Children never question faith. They never doubt. So this morning, I had this revelation: I HAVE TO DO BETTER. I have to keep bringing God more and more into our home. More than the day before. More than any other time in our lives. I have to keep moving forward in Christ. Why? Because my sons future and salvation depends on it.
As I mentioned, Connor is so impressionable right now. So the more we pray, the more we read, the more we seek God in everyday situations (good or bad), the more Connor grows in Christ. It’s so important to have a strong foundation and God made parents the ultimate foundation builders. You can either raise up or destroy your child so quickly that you don’t even know it. That’s why it’s so important for parents to have a good relationship with God themselves. And of course you shouldn’t just want to better your life with Christ because of our child. You should do it for you. But let’s face it, it’s pretty easy to put your child before yourself sometimes.
Before I even got married I always said, “I want to raise little warriors.” I still do. But man. Moming is HARD. Some days it’s hard to even brush my teeth let alone raise a warrior! But today I was thinking about this: what if I skip cleaning the kitchen today and read my bible with my son? What do you suppose would happen? I’ll be completely honest here…the thought of not cleaning my kitchen today…it haunts me a little. OCD over here! The dishes need to be done, the floors need to be swept for the umpteenth time, the counter tops have something sticky on them…not entirely sure what. So, leave it…and read. Oofta. But honestly, in a few years is my son going to tell me I should clean the kitchen cause it’s dirty? Or is he going to ask if I can skip the dining room too, so we can read together a little longer? Or say an extra long prayer?
My husband and I enjoyed a sermon one day from Steven Furtick. Him and his wife were talking about the verses in Song of Solomon, describing “little foxes”. They compared these little foxes that were eating up the vineyard to a marriage. Saying that the little stuff needs to be taken care of immediately or it turns into big stuff. If you don’t stop the little foxes now, they grow. And they become big foxes. And big foxes destroy more than little ones do. Jordon and I actually use this reference ALL THE TIME. People may think it’s silly that Jordon and I have discussions or disagreements over the fact that “I was in a bad mood today” or “he forgot to unload the dishwasher”. (And yes, we do talk about that stuff!) I’m sure people think it’s such a silly thing to bring up. Like, why bother even mentioning it? It’s something so small! But here’s why: because then it doesn’t turn into something bigger, and when it turns into something bigger it doesn’t get brought up in an arguement that isn’t even relevant! (You know the kind, where you’re fighting about finances or kids or marriage and then all of the sudden you bring up that one time 5 years ago that he left his dirty clothes on the floor.)
I feel the same way about parenting. Some may not agree with how we do things, but I like to nip the small stuff, stand our ground, and not do the typical “just this one time” thing. There ARE times when you need to pick your battles, that’s true. But by creating strong habits now, sticking with them, and working on the “little stuff” then my child will grow up to be strong in Christ. And as far as I know, all any parent wants for their child is for them to do better than they did. I had a pretty good childhood. I stayed out of a LOT of trouble. I never drank, never smoked, never did drugs. But I did occasionally swear and my anger problems were something fierce. By the worlds standards, that’s pretty good! But of course I want my child to do better! And it’s my job to guide him. I want my home to be filled with Christ at all times. Is it a struggle some days? ABSOLUTELY. But I can try to tackle a few of those little foxes each day by caring about what my child watches, reading to him, praying with him, and teaching him to worship. After all, this child is God’s anyways!